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This October marks my 10 year anniversary with San Diego, and after this past year it hit me that I was basically right back where I started, in a better overall position of course, but, I was at a crossroads again, did I want to stay on the path that was familiar to me and go with what I knew how to do, or did I want to take a leap off a cliff and dive into a whole new experience.

When I made the decision to leave CT it was because I was starting over. I won’t go into all the details, but I was not in a good place. I became a whole other person and not always a good one. When the opportunity came up to make the move, I sat up all night weighing my options, tossing and turning because I knew it was a huge leap and I had no safety net. Nothing. But this feeling kept pushing all the others aside, it was this sense of happiness and joy that just felt right. Moving to San Diego was the best thing that ever happened to me, I never once have regretted it, even at my lowest point, I knew I was brought here for a reason. I listened to that inner voice for years, that feeling whenever a new opportunity came up, there have been opportunities that didn’t work out the way I had hoped, but I don’t regret the lessons I learned or the people I met. I see it as that, a lesson. I have learned a lot about other people, cultures, and business. I learned a lot about myself and which version of her I like best.

And that’s the one that rips off her clothes and jumps off the highest cliff.

After 17 years in the service industry, I ripped off the apron, grabbed my yoga mat and said “I’m out.” I’m jumping feet first into teaching full time and doing what I need to do to make it work. I am in a better financial situation, I have an amazing support system, I have my own transportation and it just fucking feels right. It makes my heart beat faster and my soul smile. But it meant I might not be as financially comfortable if I take that path, it’s a lot of driving, wear and tear on my car, work hours you’re not used to, early mornings and late nights, no days off.

I love being busy, I love meeting new people and having meaningful conversations. I want to have new experiences and adventures, I want to see as much of this beautiful planet as I possibly can. I want to taste all the foods. So, sure I may not have a “day off” who really does, between actual work, house work and just your normal day to day life, we all have busy schedules. Yep, a lot of driving, but thank goodness of audible. I have listened to 7 books so far, most of my drive time is about 20-30 mins which gives me a good chunk of time. Gives me time to finally start listening to podcasts and listen more. I am not cut out for clopenings any more that’s for sure, but I don’t mind getting up early, it’s actually not so bad.

My days are full and I go to bed exhausted, but I also go to bed happy and at peace with how my day went. Rather than being physically exhausted from running around a restaurant, I get to workout 2 or 3 times a day, leading classes, I get a bonus workout loading the paddle boards on the beach. I don’t get frustrated as much, I’m learning to work on my patience (a lifelong challenge). I am learning not to be so hard on myself and just go with the flow.

I knew it was time to make a big decision when I couldn’t stop thinking about it. Everyday I thought of ways to make it work, and if I could search for reason to make it work, I knew it would and it WILL.

So be brave, be bold, chase your dreams, the ones you have that make your soul smile and fill you with happiness. What’s your ice cream?